The Middle Chapters

Still haven't had my follow-up meeting, but I did get a voice mail from Boss 1 saying very wonderful things. I'm starting to get the feeling that Monday's meeting was a case of the wrong place at the wrong time. Still very unpleasant, but not insurmountable.

I'm so glad I spoke to Boss 2 yesterday. Ultimately, I think this is all good and will help figure out what I'm going to be when I grow up (or am no longer pregnant or with a small baby at home.)

Holy mama-jama, yesterday's meeting with Boss 1 went down in flames. A follow-up with Boss 2 went better today and hopefully the re-cap meeting later this week or early next week will be less terrible.

Everything else is going well. Oh well.

Boss 1 has been out of town, so Boss 2 and I have plans to meet with Boss 1 on Monday to discuss plans. Angst on this topic has been removed.

Later on Wednesday, one of my 2 clients called to let me know that she has referred other work my way. I hadn't spoke to her in a few months -- this was great timing. I don't know if I'll actually get the work - someone asked for a recommendation in my state, by it was certainly great to hear. I'm somewhat afraid that the call may be forwarded to team leader in my absence and this will turn into more of the same. Well, we'll see.

Everything is good on the developing baby front. I've gained 9 pounds, cervix is long and closed. Not too many contractions.

Why oh why did I mention that nothing was happening? Ye olde contractions started in earnest Sunday. The ibuprofen helps somewhat but it seems like I'm spending a lot of time with the feeling that my uterus is a clenched fist. And I'm amazingly tired. I think all the clenching it using up my energy. I have my scheduled appointment today and will have things checked out, but I assume this is like last time; that I'll have lots of contractions before anything serious happens. That this will just be a race against keeping my sanity and being able to sleep. Sounds like a lot of fun? I'm hoping having done through this once before that I can cap the worry to reasonable levels. I'm 19 weeks, so still some weeks to viability and good baby health. Go little boy go!

I attended a great work retreat last week.

I finally worked up the nerve to ask to be switched to different work. I've worried that its been too long since I've done other things that my performance would suffer if I tried something new. My one recent project with the other company leader has gone great and my old area of work, under team leader, has continued to be frustrating.

I made my pitch for the change in person to boss 2 on Friday and yesterday (via email) to boss 1. Another co-worker even offered to back me up on the new work (I'd be taking some of a very heavy load off of her). Boss 2 seems very willing even with my limited time in the office. Its perfect timing for my old work which has dropped off precipitously.

Now if I can just stay off of bed rest.

There's just not much happening these days. Knowing that the little one is a boy gave me a whole new set of things to worry about, but I've even (mostly) worked through that. Bacon is growing and getting more interesting. She understands a lot and is starting to have her own opinion more (yikes!). She's still sleeping like a champ. Generally 2 2 hour naps a day, plus 12-ish hours at night. Hooray! I'm working 2 + full days of work a week and still feeling pretty mixed about the experience. I actually love working part time. But, I'm not a good cog. Sounds like its time to explore other options.

We had our typical May start of summer, followed by gloomy chilly June. Sweater are back on, but we can sleep at night. Lots of walks are replaced with lots of blocks. I've outgrown all my regular pants, but still mostly just look like I've been eating a lot.

See, nothing exciting.