The Middle Chapters

I thought this was our month. I had some of my early pregnancy signs - I thought. I started planning on things; thinking about the future with 2 little ones. But, no dice. Strangely, I'm not so sad and disappointed this month. The excitement was fun. Somehow I feel like we're getting closer (although there is nothing to support this feeling).

I keep telling myself that Bacon is all I need, but the truth is I really want another. I want the pregnancy and I want the child. I turn 40 later this week. How did I get this old? I know I'll be saying this when I'm 70.