The Middle Chapters

I thought this was our month. I had some of my early pregnancy signs - I thought. I started planning on things; thinking about the future with 2 little ones. But, no dice. Strangely, I'm not so sad and disappointed this month. The excitement was fun. Somehow I feel like we're getting closer (although there is nothing to support this feeling).

I keep telling myself that Bacon is all I need, but the truth is I really want another. I want the pregnancy and I want the child. I turn 40 later this week. How did I get this old? I know I'll be saying this when I'm 70.

A year ago today I was in the hospital in labor and waiting to give birth. I remember being so excited and scared - knowing that I was close to the end. I was so worried that something would still go wrong. It didn't and we got a wonderful baby girl. It's really true that things have seemed so much less scary since Bacon has been on the outside. I still worry about things - SIDS and some strange allergic reaction are the biggest concerns. But mostly it's good and not hard.

I'm so glad I got a chance to do this.