Friday, October 27, 2006
Dealing with Life
I've held off posting because the only thing I've had to talk about is sleep and sleep deprivation. I'm sick of myself on this topic. There is nothing like trying to get your child to sleep and dealing with sleep deprivation that can make one feel incapable and just looney. Instead, I'll talk about accupuncture and my return visit to my RE. Three weeks ago I started accupuncture again. I loved accupuncture before and I love it again. It's kinda pokey and zingy and not necessarily relaxing, but I do enjoy it.
Okay, just a bit on the sl**p topic. They've even been placing needles to help me sleep better - and this week was some of the best sleep I've had in quite a while. It's definitely not the fact that the baby is sleeping better because she's not. I just seem to be able to get back to sleep better and sleep deeper. Ahhhhh.
Today I mentioned the baby's bad sleep and the supervisor (I'm going to a teaching clinic) said that they could work on the baby to deal with sleep. It turns out that the supervisor, not the students, would do the work and they're not sure if they actually can - I think because it is a teaching clinic. On one hand, the idea of someone doing accupuncture on my baby seems very odd. On the other, I know that they barely place the needles in and the fact that the supervisor said that it would be for an instant made me want to pursue it. If it's a possibility where I go, I'm not sure that D will go for it. He hasn't done any accupuncture and generally is sceptical of non-western medicine. And I think he's concerned like I am about hurting Bacon. Well, we'll see.
I returned to my RE this week to discuss what we can do to pursue another successful pregnancy. They took blood to test my progesterone and prolactin levels to see if I'm ovulating and, perhaps, if my continued nursing is effecting ovulation. They left a message with my progesterone levels today, but without any explanation of the number. Next month, the plan is an ultrasound and a return to the dreaded progesterone.
The work/baby balance seems to be working. I'm still working 2 mornings and one full day a week. With Bacon's crawling, cruising, teething, and recent lack of naps, a break from our dear girl is - well - very nice. Being away from her makes being with her so much better. Strange, but this is causing me no guilt whatsoever. Strange because most things surround Bacon seem to cause me guilt. I'm making enough money to pay our nanny and make the mortgage payment easier. It really does seem all good at this point.
It's amazing how sleep just seems to make life easier.
Okay, just a bit on the sl**p topic. They've even been placing needles to help me sleep better - and this week was some of the best sleep I've had in quite a while. It's definitely not the fact that the baby is sleeping better because she's not. I just seem to be able to get back to sleep better and sleep deeper. Ahhhhh.
Today I mentioned the baby's bad sleep and the supervisor (I'm going to a teaching clinic) said that they could work on the baby to deal with sleep. It turns out that the supervisor, not the students, would do the work and they're not sure if they actually can - I think because it is a teaching clinic. On one hand, the idea of someone doing accupuncture on my baby seems very odd. On the other, I know that they barely place the needles in and the fact that the supervisor said that it would be for an instant made me want to pursue it. If it's a possibility where I go, I'm not sure that D will go for it. He hasn't done any accupuncture and generally is sceptical of non-western medicine. And I think he's concerned like I am about hurting Bacon. Well, we'll see.
I returned to my RE this week to discuss what we can do to pursue another successful pregnancy. They took blood to test my progesterone and prolactin levels to see if I'm ovulating and, perhaps, if my continued nursing is effecting ovulation. They left a message with my progesterone levels today, but without any explanation of the number. Next month, the plan is an ultrasound and a return to the dreaded progesterone.
The work/baby balance seems to be working. I'm still working 2 mornings and one full day a week. With Bacon's crawling, cruising, teething, and recent lack of naps, a break from our dear girl is - well - very nice. Being away from her makes being with her so much better. Strange, but this is causing me no guilt whatsoever. Strange because most things surround Bacon seem to cause me guilt. I'm making enough money to pay our nanny and make the mortgage payment easier. It really does seem all good at this point.
It's amazing how sleep just seems to make life easier.
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Isn't it your turn to get up with the baby?
Late in our vacation I hit the point where I was absolutely freaked about the idea of having another child. Obviously, I couldn't deal with the one I had. Obviously, we could never travel again - forget the holidays or our big sabatical next summer which I've been planning for 10 years. Bacon started crawling yesterday -- guess what that did to her already bad sleep. People keep telling me that things will get better and I know that they have to. I'm clinging to that hope while I struggle through work or even a day at home.
With some naps, I've gotten past the panic and am starting to see the wonder of having this little girl who has learned 2 big skills in a week and is teething (again). I wonder what I'll remember from this time when we get past it?
With some naps, I've gotten past the panic and am starting to see the wonder of having this little girl who has learned 2 big skills in a week and is teething (again). I wonder what I'll remember from this time when we get past it?
Monday, October 09, 2006
So tired
We just got back from 10 days in Hawaii. Big surprise, but it's totally different with a baby. A baby who didn't do well with the time change and who generally woke up every hour every night and only took short naps. Argghhhh! I was tired beyond belief and sick by the end of the trip. I enjoyed our days together, but the nights!
Bacon is pulling up on furniture now and wants to be walking - at 8 months. It's so cute, but so arggghhhhh.
I can't imagine voluntarily traveling again in the near future. But, hopefully by Christmas time I will have gotten over the worst of this to travel back east (a better direction for Bacon) for a family visit.
Bacon is pulling up on furniture now and wants to be walking - at 8 months. It's so cute, but so arggghhhhh.
I can't imagine voluntarily traveling again in the near future. But, hopefully by Christmas time I will have gotten over the worst of this to travel back east (a better direction for Bacon) for a family visit.
